I can't help but feel the competitiveness in this course - not only in the activities of my peers but also their abilities and background. It appears like the other developers know tons of languages, have at least a few self-initiated projects on the side, and some even have relevant, boast-worthy work experience. I, on the other hand, have minimal experience in web development (one orbital project), have no noteworthy self-initiated projects, and although it was a good learning experience, my internship only delved in C++ and Java. In addition to the fact that I didn't get to do my show and tell, these factors make me feel like a less-than-prominent member of the class, and an unlikely team member.
Sure, I am willing to learn, but do you think that is enough? I could try to substantiate the value of that - perhaps say that I learn fast, that I am doing well in all my CS mods, or that I'm near the top of my course academically - but I'm sure these factors aren't convincing at all.
Well, the only way I can convince any of you is to put in my best in this project and every project after - and that is what I will do. Perhaps I will still remain an inconspicuous figure in the class, and maybe I will have to resort to random assignment for groups, but I will make the best of it, and learn as much as I can.
Even if I am behind right now, I don't intend to stay that way forever.
That's the point of the arms race; you see others are "better" than you, you push hard and catch up and maybe exceed them. :)
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